Stupid Iphone

Stupid iphone..

that's my complaint today.. u lasted 4 3 weeks.. now u've gona crazy.. driving me crazy.. darn..
sucks big time..

In Need of Social Skills Training

Huhuhu...

Lately i've been having problems with communicating with others.. practically i get tongue-tied and start to stutter. God.. I wasnt like this b4.. dunno wat happen.. lack of socialization with humans? especially the opposite gender?

The story: Girl meets boy at a computer shop. Boy works there.. Girl cant even look the guy in the eye. Stumbles whenever she talks.. Avoid eye contact.. and rushes out the store..

Weird things is: Girl always used her full name.. never introduced her nickname.. Guys knows n rites her nickname on the computer bag. hmmm.... Guy calls girl using her nickname instead of her full name.. weird..

Conclusion: Girl reading too much into the situation.. hehe

Nite.. outz

Work Work Work

Oooo dear...

I have 2 months left before i start clocking in back to work in UPM. These 2 months are not gonna be filled with activities such as reading novels or playing games... but work n work n work..

i got a new assignment from my 24/7 boss. hehe... she wanted me to make a book out of my master's thesis... sounds easy rite?? but have to edit a lot of the thesis to make it concise.. hailaaa... manyak susah ooo... somehow i think my otak alrady jam one.. like somehow my skills in writing has reduce to 0.. dush...

nvm2.. all negative thoughts.. i'll have to cbt my self.. hehe...

regardless of how many workload i have... i am still reading my novels.. i secretly bought 3 novels.. still wrapped and just waiting for the rite time to read it.. and.. i have one choclate game to finish.. :))

First time buying whiskers..

Today is another history in making.. it was the first time i bought whiskers for my stray cats.. u see.. my mom is scared of cats.. but me, my dad & my grandma are cat lovers.. ever since i was a little girl, i wanted to have a cat.. stray pun stray laa.. hehe.. that i wud sneak out n play with the kittens and feed them left overs.. Mom wud always say no cats.. dont play with cats.. she wud scream loudly if she sees a cat or hear it meowing..

this has been going on for 24 years..

lately though.. mom kinda mellowed down.. i can play with cats n feed them without getting any scolding.. so happens that the new batch of kittens illegally staying at my house are triple cute.. a mix of siamese with domestic cat breed.. usually my maid n i would give them keropok.. although it aint much.. at least they get to eat something rite? but a couple of days ago.. all the keropok at home ran out.. today i went to carrefour and bought a box of whiskers.. now i know that they have different food for adult cats n kitten.. hahaha...

so came back from the store.. gave my litter the food and they pounced it like crazy.. they've been starved i guess.. huhu..poor things... looking at my window now.. i see them all sleeping.. their tank fulll.. they have this peaceful look on their faces.. haha..yeah.. i'm happy.. at least i get to feed one of God's creation.. sedekah jugak kan?

May Allah bless...

What People Expect

People tend to expect great things from me.. mom, dad.. other people..

i dont know y they think i'm capable of doing something i'm not..For example, giving a 4-hour talk about parenting to parents. I'm 25, single.. and have no experience watsoever about parenting.. yeah.. i'm trained to be a clinical psychologist.. but... to talk about something that i dont feel for? hmm.. so not me... i've tried to say no.. but somehow i feel that i let people down.. be more assertive.. say no when u cant handle it..

i guess.. i hate to let people down.. especially my parents.. hmm.. b strong.. stay focus.. InsyaAllah they will understand my need.. i cant change myself to be someone they want me to be.. this is me.. i'll try to change for the better.. but they have to accept the fact that this is me..

The End of Placement

I am so happy that my placement at HUKM has ended.. 32 weeks of pure torture.. well.. come to think bout it.. time flew by pretty fast.. i hated the first 16 weeks.. it was so stressful..then again, i have to thank my supervisor for that.. having an anal person as ur supervisor sure tested my limits.. sigh..

but.. i enjoyed the last 16 weeks of practicum.. wat freedom, i tell u! from having one su strict, my last supervisor was one emphasized on freedom to grow and being independent.. although she didnt supervised me as much, she still taught me a few tricks in the book. she never belittled me, never scolded me, never laughed at my stupidity and uncertainty. i love u 4 that sv! thank u 4 everything...

Sanctuary

Finally...

A place to vent.. to rant.. to say watever i want to say..

From now onwards.. i pledge to pour my heart and thoughts out.. and just have fun!

Yeay!!