Wat happened in June

So many things happened in June..

I find myself wanting to write it down.. but with all the things that happened, blogging became a dream..

I refuse to think about the bad things that have happened to me in this month. The past is the past.. and I refuse to remember those who played such insignificant roles in my life. However, I do thank those people for the lessons in life.. and for giving me the fire to shut u down in the future.. Revenge is sweet, you know?

Good news:

Alhamdulillah, I got the scholarship from KPT. Now I can go overseas and further my studies. With that great news, I found myself bombarded with forms to complete and to hand back to KPT as well as ANU. I found myself booking my plane ticket from Malaysia.. and booking a plane ticket only for the parents from Canberra.. I found myself mentally preparing my parents for days that I wont be here to help them with the internet or phone problem, or helping them with the TV, or with sending them off to work.. I found myself growing up and at the same time feeling scared.. Scared of the unknown future.. I have a habit of being scared of things that I cant picture in my head or control..

I found myself slowly buying clothes to wear as a student.. I found myself losing weight and remembering with the hectic schedule I dont eat regularly or well. I also found myself booking a room at the Uni that has a shared bathroom. U know, matriks style.. It so happens to be a college where there are boys and girls.. not like here. nothing like here.. i guess u understand now y i'm a bit scared..

I found myself looking at the calender and realizing that 2 months isnt that far away...

10 SEPTEMBER 2010 @ 10.10pm

That's the date..
Its hari raya..First day of eid..
And I choose to leave.. Jihad menuntut ilmu..
Its not easy..So I hope you give me the support I need..
so I can come back safe and successful in 2013.